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vbabs ([personal profile] dadcastellanos) wrote2017-01-02 12:22 am

snowflake challenge day 1

I've decided to do the [community profile] snowflake_challenge! here's the first post, only a lil late =w=

Day 1
In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator.

mmm this one's a little difficult for me. I have a complicated relationship with my writing on whole tbh, and it's hard to choose what's okay & what's not as far as my writing goes because it's basically all failed to me if it doesn't get any comments. which sucks bc people don't comment on fix anymore! it's all about the kudos. but I don't get much kudos either, womp womp.

here are three fix of mine:
nameless - this one is actually the only fic that I constantly see getting rec'd. I have a lot of people who've told me that this was their first fic or their fave or something, which is really touching & sticks with me a long time. (I mean, it's not a LOT a lot, but it's more than I'm used to def!) it was fun to write, probs one of my faves overall, so it's nice that it at least got a lil notice in the fandom. it was a gift for someone, which most of my writing seems to be, snrk.
[ Star Wars: TFA, Explicit, Hux/Kylo Ren, Gentle Sex, Kissing, Rough Sex, Biting, Scratching, 2013 words, complete ]

recovery - probably one of the sweetest, saddest things I've ever written. it's kind of more of a study than anything else, a look at two people who have to pick up the pieces when there's not much left to hold, but it was really gorgeous to write and I've always loved it. I wish I'd given it more attention but I was under a time crunch and had really actually written two almost full ficlets for this person it's gifted for that just didn't work. I think it was during the accursed fucking big bang too. I think I even ended up posting one of the ficlets so they didn't go to waste, lmfao. it didn't get a lot of looks either, which, I expected since it's a lil bit niche, but I really do love this fic.
[ Star Wars, Teen & Up, Padmé Amidala/Obi-Wan Kenobi, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Domestic, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, 1892 words, complete ]

again and again and again - this fic is SO WEIRD. it was my first time writing skysolo I think? and it was just OUT OF NOWHERE perfectly flowed onto the page. it was fun and weird and quick & was actually pretty popular for one of my fics! I dug it then & I dig it now. I had a thought to write more & make it a series but idk if I can ever recapture this level of right time, right place again so. on it's own it stands.
[ Star Wars, Explicit, Luke Skywalker/Han Solo, Dirty Talk, Riding, Dark Luke, Power Bottom Luke, vaguely dubconish, Alternate Universe, 2500 words, complete ]

a bonus 4th one bc enter Force joke here:
ren, solo - fuck this fic. fuck this fic. this fic killed my writing last year. fuck it straight to hell. it's 40k stupid rockstar AU and I hate it. it controlled my life for a full month and no one read the damn thing because the tags look scarier than they actually are and it's 60 fucking years long and I'm pretty sure it's boring as fuck too. the fact it went up at the same time as over 100 other fics too didn't help. the one goddamn fully written longfic I ever post and it dies. I hate it. I hate this fic. I'm not even going to list the tags or anything because I just cannot be arsed to give this fic more than a flaming burial. don't read it, don't look at it, just point at it with me and boo.
I want to delete it but tbqh I don't want to remove it from the bang folders or let my partner's efforts go to waste so it just gets to languish uselessly on my stupid ao3 forevermore.
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[personal profile] sperrywink 2017-01-02 12:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Looks like some intriguing choices!

I love it when stories flow onto the page the way your SkySolo one did. Such a fantastic feeling.

And, awww, I'm sorry you hate your fic, but I've been there. I'm glad you didn't delete it, since fanfic disappearing always makes me sad, but I wish you could feel better about it.